The 3 stages

My husband thinks I’m a big miser, but he should be happy right? I don’t go about splashing his hard earned money. I try to buy at sales and look for good deals. Maybe it’s because I used to have a job and I know what it’s like to work hard to earn something. Nah, that’s not it, I’m just a big miser.

So the problem that arises is that if I ever do indulge myself, and buy something expensive I become the biggest pain in the neck. I go through these three stages.

Stage 1: Doubt. Did I really need to buy it? Should I have bought another style, another color?

Stage 2: Guilt. Why did I spend so much money on it when it doesn’t even look that good?

Stage 3: Self Assurance. Maybe it is pretty nice and really worth it.

Stage 1 and Stage 2 involves bothering my husband with questions, trying on the new merchandise and asking him hundred times how it looks. Of course when he answers without looking I have to ask him again.. and again till he says in exasperation “It looks fine!”

“Fine is not good enough for what I’ve spent on it” I answer.

“It looks good, OK?”

“You said fine to start with”.

So what I really need to do is break this habit of mine, skip Stage 1 and Stage 2 and land directly at Stage 3. I should learn to enjoy an expensive pair of shoes or a new piece of jewelry without feeling guilty. After all every woman deserves it once in a while doesn’t she? And I guess after having made that purchase, my husband just wants to be left alone.

Daily Prompt: Breakdown